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| haha! i have been so moody recently!! but yes!! today, i am so in love with love! ^_______^
i guess...sometimes i forget just how cute romance is! how
fabulous to have a guy...look you in the eye...and....want to kiss
you! eeh! makes me all gushy and giggly and -sigh- i just
melt...
-can it really be? happening to me? am i feeling love. am i feeling love?
EDIT// hmm..sidenote. i've been thinking. the reason i've
never had a boyfriend? because i want a guy who would fight for
me. who would be like "she's the one. i HAVE to make her
like me, notice me." and no one cares that much in
highschool. i mean, you ask a girl, she says no. eh, you
might be sad, but no biggie. you'll just ask the other girl you
kinda liked too.
that's not what i'm looking for.
don't worry. i know i'm asking for a lot. i know i'm an
idealist romantic. -shrug- but it's just how i am. if
something isn't worth the fight, then why try?
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| so hmm. kind of depressed now. why? i don't
have...anything that makes me special...anything that i can pour my
life into being.
there are so many things that i love to do...and, well...i'm not good
enough at them to have it be what i do for life. you
know? like...i love to sing. but i can't. yet it's
how i express myself...so in the end, i can never fully get out what
i'm trying to say. the same goes for drawing and dancing and
acting and...everything...
-sigh- i have no real talent. no life long dream that i can
follow. i just wanna find...what i'm good at. the one
thing, that i can dedicate myself to doing...and perfecting...the one
thing that'll make me happy.
i wanna find something to live for.
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| Hurray! No more romantically drained, no more broken
heartedness. why? oh, random people...or PERSON ^_~ makeing
me happy. i adore you!!
-and also wonderful love songs...
"i will always love you
always be there
be there for you"
"just loving you, is the best thing i can do"
"i'll give you anything dear,
all i want is to be with you"
-hmm...i do believe my ideal guy must lurve to sing...i will expect to
be serenaded daily, teehee! i mean...he doens't have to be
good...it'll be cute anyways ^_^
"thinking of YOU, is all i wanna do!"
EDIT// funny how a day can go so bad so fast...-sigh- that's just how life is i spose
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hmmm...my wil heart can only take so much at once.
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| otay...so this anti-people thing i was feeling. -sigh- it's too
hard to explain. but i'm over it, it's just the way some people
are and there's nothing that i can do about that.
i'll just...you know...keep track of myself...and hope i never turn into one of them. ^_^
anyways, been feeling very weirdly romantic lately. kinda you
know...wanna get this first kiss thingy out of the way! it bugs me too
much! hahaha...but of course...not with just any weirdo...then that'd
defeat the purpose of it. .....ALTHOUGH...in animes...the first kiss of
girls like me are often stolen by weirdos...who turn out to be such
cuties...so maybe...o_O
hahahaha...
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